Wednesday, May 16, 2007

We miss you already

Yesterday was a beautiful spring day here in mountains. The children were outside riding bikes, and Rodney was out mowing the (much needed) grass. Our cabinets were depleted so I needed to make a quick run to the grocery store.
As always Rodney had to hold back our big boxer Lil Bit (we didn't name her). Lil Bit loved to ride in the car. I would roll down the window and let her stick her head out, Oh that was heaven for her. I even thought before leaving "I won't be in the store long, let her ride she will love it" but I didn't. So I waved goodbye to Rodney and Lil Bit as I pulled out of the driveway. As I was walking through the parking lot after my shopping was done, I looked out at my van and thought, "I wished I would have brought Lil Bit, then I would have her to greet me right now". I loaded up the groceries and headed home. As I rounded the curve I could see the grass was only partially mowed and Rodney was sitting on the front porch. I knew something was wrong. I pulled in, leaving the groceries in the car and ran to the porch. His eyes were blood shot and teary. "What's wrong??!!" I asked. At first he didn't say anything, tears just streamed down his face. Then he said "It's Lil Bit."
"What?....She's dead?........ NO?!" I cried.
He told me the neighbor pulled up while he was mowing and said he thought it was her in the road. Rodney ran down the hill toward the highway and seen her laying there. He broke down. He came back to the house and told the children to go inside and stay until he came back for them.
So the children didn't know yet. I wanted to tell Victoria separately, I knew she would take it the hardest. I pulled her upstairs into my bedroom and broke the news, she just kept saying "No, she's not, not Lil Bit". I hugged her and she sobbed in my arms. When I told Chandler and Maddie, they cried to. Maddie didn't quite understand, but she cried because we were.
Then, Rodney came in and said "Lets go bury her". At first I thought I can't, I can't handle it. But, I wanted to be there to comfort the kids. We picked up the shovel and pick ax and headed toward the hill were Rodney had wrapped and left her body. Rodney dug the hole and we sat there by her wrapped body patting it. When he was done, we said goodbye one last time and left.
I know it's so silly, she was just a dog. But, we loved her so much. I keep saying to myself "why didn't I just let her ride with me, why?"
I never thought it could hurt so bad to lose a pet, but I can't seem to stop crying. I keep waiting for her to come sit beside me. I know we will move on and the hurt will stop, but I just wish that time would hurry up and get here.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

I'm still here!
Wow what a busy few weeks we have had. First of all the children started sports and we have been helping coach. Chandler and Madilyn have started T-ball. It is so fun to watch. Chandler can't stand still on the field. He is running around chasing butterflies and his friends. While Maddie on the other hand just quietly stands there not yet confident enough to chase the ball. Fortunately they both are having a blast with it! Victoria has started track )just like her mother :o) . I knew her long legs would come in handy. She seems to be quite the natural at it. It's exciting watching her do something I was so fond of .
All of my wonderful husband's hard work has paid off. He got a promotion!! He is now an E-7 Sgt 1st Class. With this promotion comes some more exciting news. We are moving. After talking long and hard about how important family is Rodney decided we needed to be closer to our family so, he put in for a transfer to my hometown and got it! I am so excited. I will be living closer to my mom and dad. I am sorry I haven't been a good blogger these last few weeks, I will try to do better. Nite!